Sometimes I'll encounter one of the gods of the world, and think to myself, "Dude, you'll stop at nothing." Sometimes I'll encounter one of the many demi-gods of the world, and think to myself, "Dude, you'll stop at nothing to take that god of the world down so you can try and take his place." And then I pat myself on the back and think to myself, "I'm not like those jerks."
Nevertheless, I'm a girl with guy-style goals and ambitions. Today, I think I'm learning one of those lessons that guys learn and I'm wondering if I made a mistake and if I should have married that guy oh so many years ago and maybe I did miss out on finding happiness in marriage, love, family, kids after all. I thought those things were fine for lesser mortals.
I now realize that there were plenty of people who encountered me who thought, "Dude, you'll stop at nothing and you mow over anyone in your way."
So I just finished the dinner dishes and my mom, her boyfriend, and my kid Alex are settled in for a relaxing evening. I turn to my blog and I'm thinking that maybe those lesser mortals had it right after all. I never had time for myself when I was all wrapped up in myself, trying to become a god of the world.
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