The Mother-In-Law Chronicles

Here's some irony. I'm more agitated now during my few hours of "respite" from caring for my mother in law with dimentia because my thoughts and emotions are now allowed to go unchecked. While I'm with her, I must constantly practice lojong: give all profit and gain to others, take all loss and defeat upon yourself ("Oh, I'm so sorry I broke that (thing that was broken before I got here)), and completely obliterate my ego. Interestingly, there's a profound peace and serenity in doing that. Now that I'm not practicing lojong, I must go and do my sitting practice in order to maintain my sanity!