Becoming a Good Christian

I want to be like those good Christians. You know the ones. They are so gentle, kind, and humble. They are incapable of hurting a fly. They are good through and through.

I've been wrestling with my ego by myself, and my ego's been winning. In desperation, I prayed to the lama, buddhas, and bodhisattvas and they helped me. Then I realized that I don't have to go it alone (big DUH!). In fact, it's impossible to conquer your own ego by yourself. While doing my Refuge practice, I realized that those good Christians are that way through the grace of God, and that I, too, can become like them through the blessings of the lama, the buddha, the dharma, and the noble sangha.

Those good Christians practice being in the grace of God throughout the day, throughout their lives. Maybe if I continue to practice Refuge in this way after I'm done with my accumulations, I can eventually become like them.

Right now, however, I'm like Scarlett O'Hara who really wants to be a great lady like her mother was, but she hasn't got time to be one. Right now she has to run the lumber mills and carry a gun. HAHA!!!